Its been down and low.....

It has been such a low and down day for me... I guess we all have days like these and today for me has been one of my all time low... Though its a season to be happy and glad that Ang Paos(Red packets, for those who don't know what is that) collection are finally round the corner, I can't help it but feel down. Its juz that when your morale level juz goes down, no matter what you think or do, it juz wouldn't turn out positive. And to think that I've juz advice people that Life is not as bad as they think. At the same time, I've caused worry to my girl which was really unnecessary and selfish of me to do... Argh!!!!! Now, the only thing I can do is juz to release it here as a source of outlet and refuge. Life is juz so frustrating at times, why can't we juz live each day constant? Why must there be ups & downs? Why do we have to wake up on the wrong side of the bed when the day should be such a beautiful one? So many WHYs and yet, there isn't a single f**king answer. All I can look forward to now, is a brighter day tomorrow but I'm suffering inside my agony right now. I feel like I could burst out in tears, laughter and anguish all at the same time. Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!! @#$@#!%@&@(@^!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!